Originally posted on amamasheart:
Psalm 119 Blessed are the undefiled in the way, who walk in the law of the Lord.2 Blessed are they that keep his testimonies, and that seek him with the whole heart.3 They also do no iniquity: they walk in his ways.
Most of my life I have been fiercely independent. It was a coping skill borne out of abuse It did not protect me as I supposed, but kept people at a distance. I trusted few people. I was incapable of fully loving because you cannot give what you do not have. You cannot love without trust.
What I did not recognize until I was in my sixties, is that I didn’t really trust God completely either. I had to have my fingers in the pie. I had to figure everything out ahead of time. There was no absolute surrender. No trust. No pure joy.
Fear eliminates trust. Whether fear…
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